Leaving Scarlett behind yesterday was very hard. I think I cried most of the way home. I was hard to just walk away without her in our arms. Every time I saw her car seat sitting at home, waiting for her, I would cry- I really should hide that thing.
In the morning, Jon let me go alone to see Scarlett while he pulled the weeds getting out of control in our yard. It took 15 minutes to get from our house to the hospital.
The occupational therapist saw her today. She is working with Scarlett's range of motion to help loosen her muscles.
They would do an x-ray on her left femur tomorrow to see if the bone was properly fusing back together. They said it should be healed in about 10 days.
The best part of the day, though, was when Scarlett's nurse, Renee, told me I could hold Scarlett. Those words immediately lifted my spirit.
Renee untangled all the wires while I sat in the ugly yet comfortable green rocker. She placed Scarlett skin to skin against me and she quickly melted into my body. I can't tell you how good that felt! For one whole hour, I got to hold and smell and caress my baby. It was the best day!
We visited Scarlett that night. The kids were so excited to go to the hospital again, although they wouldn't be seeing Scarlett and hadn't yet up to that point. Jon and I swapped turns watching the kids while the other one went to visit Scarlett. On my turn to watch the kids, we got the free chocolate milk and graham crackers they offered in the snack area up the hall. With all the chairs in the waiting room, we decided we would play a game where one person was it and they thought of a chair and if you sat on that chair, you won. The kids loved that game and we play it almost every time we go visit Scarlett.
Tonight was hard, I think all the waiting and the unknown is wearing me and Jon down. It is difficult not knowing when Scarlett will be coming home. I am trying to keep positive and am excited for every little step she makes. Like today, they started her back on my milk! We love you Scarlett and want you to get better soon!
