This has been the best winter I've seen in a long time! And although I really dislike being in the cold, yesterday felt like I was a kid again tromping through that white fluffy stuff. I think my kids wondered where their mother ran off to and who this fun girl was that was throwing snow balls at them:)
Jaina also invented snow chairs and we made snow tunnels that would have been totally awesome if I had more patience (and snow pants on).
One of my goals for this year is to discover some new hobbies that can enrich mine and my family's life. So, this past Christmas, I got my first DSLR camera to capture those family moments. I didn't dare touch it for a couple of weeks, but after talking to some family members who are pretty much pros when it comes to photography, I felt a little more confident with it. My mom suggested I take all my picture on manual mode, so that's what I've been doing. MOM! I need you by my side:) Luckily I was able to brighten these pictures with photoshop.
Last week Jon and I met with Bott and Sons monument, to order Scarlett's headstone. I am really excited about all the personal detail we'll get to put on it.
Lately, I've felt more peace with not having Scarlett here anymore. Maybe it's because that's the way we were designed, to have those memories fade a touch- because it is so heartbreaking to think about it too much. But that's not to say I don't still think of her everyday, because I do. I guess I am just okay with waiting a while to see her again.
Life still has to go on when you lose your loved ones. That's what is the hardest. Although they are coming less frequently now, there were days in the past few month when I didn't want to get out of bed in the morning, and if you know me, that means something is really wrong. But I had to keep going, even if my heart wasn't really into it. The kids had to get to school and my family needed me to care for them.
But when all is said and done, I'm grateful for this trial in my life. Our trials were designed for us. Heavenly Father knows what we need to grow so we can become what he knows will bring us the most joy.
And for that I am grateful.
And for that I am grateful.
1 comment:
Oh Mandi, you've inspired me again! I thought about going out to play with my kids, and now I'm actually going to do it. :)
I am so excited for you and your new camera! I remember thinking I would pick up the camera and get amazing photos every single time...and being so frustrated learning manual mode! But your pictures look awesome, but that's not a surprise because everything you do is awesome. :)
Hope to see you soon!
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